Just about now, you can almost hear the collective sighs of the residents of Minneapolis, Minnesota. It’s kind of a dark joke where my sister lives.
Yes, the mums have come out.
Summer’s on the way out – cue the long Winter of cold and snow.
The bright annuals are perched and ready in the doorways, like a shield of defiance from the cold.
It’s a wistful goodbye to summer with a last bright spot of yellow.
We mark our weather and the seasons like we mark our moods. The routine and flow of this keeps us on track, and reminds us of where we are in nature, and in our bodies.
Being over 60 is a bit like this. I know this next season of my life is here, but I can’t resist a parting shot of color. It is born of pride and a bit of stubborness, maybe.
I still keep trying to run, like always, but it’s been downgraded to running/walking and is now morphing into brisk walking. With a strained hamstring and other ailments, I wonder what this next stage will be like.
Old age.
Today I thought that maybe I’m looking at it wrong. It’s not, Oh no, not another long Winter.
Instead it crossed my mind – how many more times will I buy these flowers?
We seem to think we have infinite time, perennial seasons.
But we don’t.
I do know that I want to be able to get down on the floor and play with my grandson. I’d also like to scamper across the sand at the beach and swing him around.
Okay, maybe that’s a little ambitious.
It’s funny, whenever I sit and read with my grandson, he grabs the saggy skin on my forearm and squishes it and he pinches it throughout the entire story.
The first time he did it, I reflexively started to comment or explain – for being old, I guess. Seriously.
But I didn’t. I treasured the moment.
As Robert Frost wrote, Nothing gold can stay.
So today, I’m trying not to fixate on the state of my body next to the young runners on the trail, or going crazy with free weights in the bedroom.
I’m simply trying to slow the steps down and appreciate the sno-cone like mums, popping up so joyfully, and so briefly, all over the neighborhood porches.
Sno-cone like mums, popping up so joyfully! What a beautiful phrase and thought!
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SO glad to be reading your reflections again. They are bright, welcome emails that are saved until all the peripheral emails have been deleted. Happy autumn days. Keep writing so I can keep readi .
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